Been up for two and a half days now and I cant figure out why I cant sleep . Ive tried everything from alcohol to Marconi and Cheese sleeping pills and reading and Tv.(not all at once)In eight hours I will either be in a Hospital for sleep issues or fall asleep and go to my BFFS Dad Fiftieth birthday party.Theres something wrong with me and I might be having a mental breakdown.
Its been adding up for a while but If I don't get some things in order I am going to be dead soon. My brain is already in shutdown mode and I feel my body starting to shut down too.This place does not help me at all. It would be a great getaway If I had my own job and my own place but I don't . I have nothing to offer this place If I am not living and experiencing .The walls are closing in on me.I have to get healthy and this is just another addiction . I give up.I have never been so unhappy as I currently am and I pray to God that he will look down on me and help me get trough this. I am so sick of my head and my heart hurting.
Thanks to everyone here for talking to me and getting to know me for the past couple of years. It was fun getting to know everyone and I had a fun time joking with everyone and you guys made me very happy and made me laugh alot. I wish the best for everyone and People that open up and share on here are the best.
I wish the best for everyone even bitches that thought they could step to this and failed at it.
The next time you hear from me I hope things are looking up. I gotta believe
I gotta go take care,
your Friend ,Super Mario.
** Dawg/Monk or Mods please cut off my posting capabilities or put me in timeout Or shut the account off Until I have at least have a Job. thank you***