I'm going to stay up trying to figure it out
it really was more scary for the people around me. They really thought this shit was happening. I haven't had one in years, they started after my grandmother died and I went away to camp, and then really got bad after my brother's murder, when I was 19.

Dreams. Ha! There is no such thing as dreams!
Sleep is for pussies.
I haven't remembered dreams in so many years
ok, who writes "goo goo at a at a, fukin jew heeb"?
"fuckyoubigot i dont like you're sig" "repeated annoying comments"
The Lord is not my Shepherd for I am not a sheep.
I guess by Mlaw's description, I don't have "Night Terrors", but I tend to have constant nightmares almost exclusively. Hence, I drink liquor almost every night to knock me out and inhibit the dreaming state, otherwise shit gets so bad it wakes me up, and leaves me emotionally devastated the next day, as though the nightmare really happened.
Sex dreams happen less frequently, but they suck because I always wake up just about the time it gets really good; I've only had one "complete" wet dream in 48 years....what a rip-off.
At one time I worked hard on developing lucid dreams, and it was very interesting. In some ways it sounds kinda like the night-terrors as described by Mlaw, but much more positive, since you can do cool stuff and also work through some major issues in very short order, but it takes a lot of discipline and patience......
My roommate in college would lucid dream. He could fly in his dreams -- or so he said. I beleive him. I tried it, but it takes some real zen consciousness to pull it off. Whenever I realize I am dreaming, I awake. Good for you being able to pull that off.
My little brother had night terrors, but I really don't think he was awake. He would get out of hisbed and go in the hall and face the wall or something and then just fucking let go with blood curldling screams. It was freaky. If you went over to him to comfort him he would become startled and more frightened and and he would scream louder. It was a little Blair Witch/Paranormal Activity type shit. I hated it. It just went away after a while.
Yes, it's really a lot harder than one might think, and I only really pulled it off 2 or 3 times at most in maybe a year of earnestly applying myself. And you're right, 99% of the time, when I realized I was dreaming, I woke up, but I should try to do it again, because when it does work, it's fucking amazing, and I did get permanent relief from one of my myriad neurosis when I was successful...
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