Reality Alert, Monday morning is tomorrow....

[Smell Muhfinger]

I'm so tapped right now I'd do just about anything for an extra 3 hundy.

So yes. Yes I would.

no you would not.

[Vyb]

she's still pretty hot now for a 50 year old...she was one of the first women to make my penis move.

The gf wanted to get married, but I thought that was nuts. I was making $18k a year back then and she was a waitress at Bennigans.

I chose grad school over her. She was all "Farewell, Vybenezer. May you be happy with the life you have chosen."

[Vyb]

Fuck no.

Oh good.

I'm so tapped right now I'd do just about anything for an extra 3 hundy.

So yes. Yes I would.

Oh hai.

[deverrant]

Jeez Dev, I hope you're joking, you don't need to be drunk and begging some retard to be your boyfriend, what are ya, trying to be Taylor Swift or something?

I didn't beg. I asked if he was my boyfriend. Because the way we are, everything we do... we're basically a fucking couple except that we don't call ourselves that. And this has been going on for over a year. And I'm kind of at the point where I need it to be something legit or it has to stop. I tried to stop it before but he wore me down. And that's what's weird... we're real back and forth. One wants a relationship and the other says no, only for us to switch positions a couple months later.

I don't even know that I DO want a relationship, but I'm sick of limbo. And I was emotional because I was drunk. And I guess I feel like if I'm good enough to fuck all the time for a year, and good enough to say "I love you" to, then why not make it official? I was hurt that he didn't want to say that. He got all fuckin' weird. And that pissed me off. Especially since 6 months ago HE was the one asking for a relationship and I was the one who said no.
...I dunno. He's a guy I can't live with and can't live without. He's bad for me, I know it. But I can't cut him loose.

I tell you though, I really AM sick of limbo so something needs to change. He needs to be my guy or stay the fuck away from me, and NOT beg me to come back and hang out or fuck.
...that is IF I'm certain I want an actual relationship, which, I'm honestly not sure. So maybe it IS best we stay this way?

I don't fucking know.

I hate all this.

[deverrant]

no you would not.

Oh good.



Oh hai.

Dropped over a grand within the last week just to GET my house... plus more for shit I need for the house (and I'm far from done there), plus fucking Christmas... ugh. Craziness.

[Smell Muhfinger]

I didn't beg. I asked if he was my boyfriend. Because the way we are, everything we do... we're basically a fucking couple except that we don't call ourselves that. And this has been going on for over a year. And I'm kind of at the point where I need it to be something legit or it has to stop. I tried to stop it before but he wore me down. And that's what's weird... we're real back and forth. One wants a relationship and the other says no, only for us to switch positions a couple months later.

I don't even know that I DO want a relationship, but I'm sick of limbo. And I was emotional because I was drunk. And I guess I feel like if I'm good enough to fuck all the time for a year, and good enough to say "I love you" to, then why not make it official? I was hurt that he didn't want to say that. He got all fuckin' weird. And that pissed me off. Especially since 6 months ago HE was the one asking for a relationship and I was the one who said no.
...I dunno. He's a guy I can't live with and can't live without. He's bad for me, I know it. But I can't cut him loose.

I tell you though, I really AM sick of limbo so something needs to change. He needs to be my guy or stay the fuck away from me, and NOT beg me to come back and hang out or fuck.
...that is IF I'm certain I want an actual relationship, which, I'm honestly not sure. So maybe it IS best we stay this way?

I don't fucking know.

I hate all this.

He sounds like a compete prick to me.

[Smell Muhfinger]

You deserve better.

[deverrant]

I know.

But he's funny and fun and tattooed and adorable and good in bed and we have everything in common.